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When he's leaving, he left (part 2)

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 09:29:00 GMT

God gave us another month. God gave us another dream. God gave us....another chance. and it finally came to an end. I have to let go and same goes to you.

Taylor Swift- Breathe

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I think i'm falling for you.

v-ny

Catherine.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 12:10:24 GMT

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

cat, as promised!

v-ny

All sick. And I'm sick of it.

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 04:33:20 GMT

For the people out there who know me, i'm sick and have not been recover for a week. I am really suffering at night and still coughing my lungs out. My cough is almost killing me, the endurance of waking up, coughing, drop back to the bed, waking up again, coughing again is so much more than a ordinary people could TAKE!

BUT THAT IS FINE. The worst is yet to come.... My sister was fever yesterday and her sodium level dropped really fast and had to be admitted to hospital. And then not too long after that, I was acknowledged by my mum that the same thing happened to my dad. And this morning, my younger sister she hid herself under her blanket shivering and her temperature rises to 39.9. WOW, I mean, What The Hell Is Going On Right Now?

Gee. We're all sick.

So just a little reminder to the people I know, please take good care of yourself. Drink more water, put your mask, sleep earlier, practice good diet habit and urmmm just take good care of yourself. =D

v-ny

People in my life

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 01:54:21 GMT

There are people in my life who give me comfort when the going gets tough, as it invariably does. I can count on them for a shoulder to cry on. They will lift me up when i fall, they will hold me in their arms as I cry and tell me that everything is going to be just fine. I am so thankful for those people...

I consider my mum as the most important people in life. Sometimes I hate myself for being take things for granted, i mean take HER for granted. I still can vividly remember that I cried when I was still in national service because I never thought that I could missed her so much. I never tought that I could be so insecure when she's not around. For everthing she'd done, I will never be able to repay her.

The another person is probably my best friend Wai Yan. I used to be quite conservative--until I meet her. She taught me something-lessons in life. She taught me how to appreciate people, how to feel, how to be there for people, and to be confident. Because of her, I am now try to be way more thoughtful in how I deal with people. Because of her, I'm not so empty anymore and I am contented with feelings. Because of her, for the first time I felt like I was needed, like I have a purpose in life. Because of her, I tend to be much more confident. And without her, my pathetic life would not be worth living.

Third person, he walked into my life just like everyone else. We started off as normal friend, to good friend, to intimate friend and now PEOPLE START TO THINK THAT WE'RE HAVING SOME SORT OF ABNORMAL RELATIONSHIP (We're definately not in a relationship, just because that I'm a girl and he's a boy it doesnt mean that we had to be in a relationship). Well, that could explain, our relationship can be very simple but at the same time very complicated too. But that's not the main point why I am writting this. He's the one who lifted me up when I fell, when I was in a depression. Maybe other people will never be able to understand how much it mean to me because I really had a hard time that moment. And I really appreciate him. =D

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You know, now I stopped to think about it for a second, this few people could be some total stranger that I meet on the street, I wonder how my life would be without them.

v-ny

THE FWB

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 12:16:50 GMT

I'm getting a little bit insecure and sometimes emotionally attached.

Trust? Friends? Caring? Love? So much uncertainities and yet there's more to come.

And now things happen so often that i'm not so certain what is in the mind. Thinking too much? Probably.

For some moment I thought we could stay that way forever. But I found out that I was wrong.

I dont feel like appreciating myself anymore. Neither do anyone.

I need someone who respect me as a person, not as a tool where it is only going to cause me heartache.

I'm not sick. Just a little bit unwell.

v-ny

I am useless

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 10:59:31 GMT

In all of a sudden, all my relation has gone so bad.

If you are not happy, just tell me direct on the face.

I sent them messages and msn but none of them reply. Even it is unintentionally, it somehow drive them away, far away from me.

I know i contributed nothing. I am sorry but if you are not happy just tell me direct on the face. At least it make me feels better. And now i felt like an idiot, sorry for being so stupid, sorry for not contributing anything.

I can not do better in anything. Studies, friends, health, family. I couldn help being so useless and i'm sorry.

v-ny

DORKKKK.

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 03:36:00 GMT

Please tell me why I’m such a failure. Why when something comes into my hands it just slips from my fingers. Optimism only gets you so far, which is has. At least for me, but I don’t know how the things in my life become so temporary.

I'm just tired being a rut.

But at least, i know they're always there for me. That's all I need for now.

v-ny- cherish evey moment. :3

WHO IS TO SAY RIGHT OR WRONG?

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:08:03 GMT

This post is dedicated to the "hell girl".

Maybe you can tell me-who is the people with the power to make things right or wrong by issuing ruling, finding or determination? I mean, nobody could possible have the power to do this, so there is just no such authorities. It does not gives you any rights to band our plan simply because you're a teacher and we're your student. Justice exist, and people like us deserve fair treatment.

Things happening in the school is definately not okay. Students are to be forced to do something against their will, something they're not willing to! We're living in a world where everyone is equal, and equally deserving respect. SO....where is the justice? Where the hell is our human rights?

Seriously I don't see any reason why are we putting so much effort while all the hardwork we've been giving all this while are not appreciated. And it's start getting on my nerves.

THINGS I DONT LIKE ABOUT HARI KEUSAHAWAAN.

1. I just want to enjoy. And i was forced to donate 30.

2. We planned our games and our idea was banned one week before and we were told to do something else.

3. Food is expensive. Even Air Batu Campur cost 5. Shaun said: MAKAN ABC PUN TERCEKIK. 5 RINGGIT TU TERCEKIK KAT KERONGKONG. no hyperbola, he got the point. XD

4. HELL GIRL.

v-ny He is the only consolation i got now.

A LOT OF TAG. T.T

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 19:04:37 GMT

Tagged by ong, jacky, and wk.

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
--- forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
--- i am so freaking tired

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
--- cheong oscar

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
--- well sometimes. to be honest, for some moment i think i screwed up my teenage life XD

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
--- yes. three times

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
--- yeah, like...tonnes of them.

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
--- HELL NO. worst than cursing

8. What does your last text message SAY?
--- lam gao?!!!

9. What are you thinking right NOW?
--- my uncompleted PA homework

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
--- i'm cool with it

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
--- hmmmm...

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
--- not sure.

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
--- ah ong. because of you, i'm doing this bloody test

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
--- mc

TEN Lucky Person to ~~complete my following tag~~!
1- pilipala
2- ah ong
3- mc
4- mandy
5- saimen
6- aivi
7- singmei
8- philip
9- kelvin
10- ck

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH?
--- what kind of relationship? we'llbe marrying like.... 21 years later/

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE?
--- male.... or female? shemale????!

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER, would it be a good?
--- sing mei and pilipala? u gotta be kidding. ah boo and ck will be really lonely~

18. What is no.1 studying ABOUT?
--- form 6 la.

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM?
--- well just a moments ago.

20. IS no.4 SINGLE?
--- yes she is. and she loves to flirt

21. Say something about no.2
--- tall, expert in math, loves yellow, my future husband to be.

22. What do you think about no.5 & no.6 being TOGETHER?
--- SAIMEN AND AIVI! seriously they could make up the best couple. (no offence hm!)

23. Describe no.9
--- TALL DAO. my childhood friend and live next door.i claimed to be his second wife (my sister the first)

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT?
--- i will give them both a kick.

25. Do you like NO.8?
--- LOL. his talent, sense of humour (sometime not so humour), his attitude. overall he's a good guy. =D

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 13:52:17 GMT

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

EVEN MYSELF OSO CANT SATISFY

v-ny: HIS DVD IN STORE SOON! i mean isn it awesome? tell me it's awesome! of course it's awesome!!!! dont u love this faceeee!? says:

my life is boring too

lack of excitement

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

LOL

NO AR

v-ny: HIS DVD IN STORE SOON! i mean isn it awesome? tell me it's awesome! of course it's awesome!!!! dont u love this faceeee!? says:

and my result sucks

sien ah~

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

UR PHOTO

ENVY U LO!

U RESULT SUCKS?

MY RESULT CAN THROW INTO DUSTBIN D

CHEER UP LA U

BUT U LA GT PROBLEM OWAIZ KEEP DUN WAN PPL TO WORRY U

BUT U NOE WAD

v-ny: HIS DVD IN STORE SOON! i mean isn it awesome? tell me it's awesome! of course it's awesome!!!! dont u love this faceeee!? says:

where got?????

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

U DO TAT PPL MORE WORRY U LO

v-ny: HIS DVD IN STORE SOON! i mean isn it awesome? tell me it's awesome! of course it's awesome!!!! dont u love this faceeee!? says:

.....

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

U ASK URSELF LA

NO NID TELL ME

v-ny: HIS DVD IN STORE SOON! i mean isn it awesome? tell me it's awesome! of course it's awesome!!!! dont u love this faceeee!? says:

who say i keep to myself?

[C][A][N] insomniac. says:

HMM

U GV ME DE FEELING IS LIK TAT LO

SOME RANDOM CONVERSATION THAT I SHOULD THROW A DEEP THOUGHT INTO IT...