God gave us another month. God gave us another dream. God gave us....another chance. and it finally came to an end. I have to let go and same goes to you.
Taylor Swift- Breathe
I see your face in my mind as I drive away 'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way People are people and sometimes we change our minds But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see 'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh
I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
For the people out there who know me, i'm sick and have not been recover for a week. I am really suffering at night and still coughing my lungs out. My cough is almost killing me, the endurance of waking up, coughing, drop back to the bed, waking up again, coughing again is so much more than a ordinary people could TAKE!
BUT THAT IS FINE. The worst is yet to come.... My sister was fever yesterday and her sodium level dropped really fast and had to be admitted to hospital. And then not too long after that, I was acknowledged by my mum that the same thing happened to my dad. And this morning, my younger sister she hid herself under her blanket shivering and her temperature rises to 39.9. WOW, I mean, What The Hell Is Going On Right Now?
Gee. We're all sick.
So just a little reminder to the people I know, please take good care of yourself. Drink more water, put your mask, sleep earlier, practice good diet habit and urmmm just take good care of yourself. =D
There are people in my life who give me comfort when the going gets tough, as it invariably does. I can count on them for a shoulder to cry on. They will lift me up when i fall, they will hold me in their arms as I cry and tell me that everything is going to be just fine. I am so thankful for those people...
I consider my mum as the most important people in life. Sometimes I hate myself for being take things for granted, i mean take HER for granted. I still can vividly remember that I cried when I was still in national service because I never thought that I could missed her so much. I never tought that I could be so insecure when she's not around. For everthing she'd done, I will never be able to repay her.
The another person is probably my best friend Wai Yan. I used to be quite conservative--until I meet her. She taught me something-lessons in life. She taught me how to appreciate people, how to feel, how to be there for people, and to be confident. Because of her, I am now try to be way more thoughtful in how I deal with people. Because of her, I'm not so empty anymore and I am contented with feelings. Because of her, for the first time I felt like I was needed, like I have a purpose in life. Because of her, I tend to be much more confident. And without her, my pathetic life would not be worth living.
Third person, he walked into my life just like everyone else. We started off as normal friend, to good friend, to intimate friend and now PEOPLE START TO THINK THAT WE'RE HAVING SOME SORT OF ABNORMAL RELATIONSHIP (We're definately not in a relationship, just because that I'm a girl and he's a boy it doesnt mean that we had to be in a relationship). Well, that could explain, our relationship can be very simple but at the same time very complicated too. But that's not the main point why I am writting this. He's the one who lifted me up when I fell, when I was in a depression. Maybe other people will never be able to understand how much it mean to me because I really had a hard time that moment. And I really appreciate him. =D
You know, now I stopped to think about it for a second, this few people could be some total stranger that I meet on the street, I wonder how my life would be without them.
